Heart dripping

Lexie was cuddling with Annabelle in the car while I dashed about getting things ready for swim lessons. "Mommy" she called "Mommy, Down Syndrome is just too much!" I was a little shocked and asked her how she thought it was too much. "It's just too much, it just makes me love Annabelle so much I feel like it's dripping out of my heart!"

What a beautiful thing for a little 5 year old to say about her darling little 3 year old sister.

I told Lexie that I agreed with her, but it wasn't the Down Syndrome that made me love Annabelle so much that it dripped out of my heart, because I loved HER as much as I love Annabelle, and Lexie doesn't have Down Syndrome.

May all of us love so much and so purely.

She has a message.

On Tuesday at the swimming pool, I watched Annabelle heal a man's soul. "She has Downs, right?" he asks. Me "Yeah" "My baby (8 mos) was just diagnosed as developmentally delayed, how do you deal with the stress?!!!" He says, scant inches from my nose. And Annabelle launched herself out of my arms and insisted he hold her. I could see sparks of blessings all around. Here's this big black guy with beautiful ebony skin holding this tiny pale baby who's all about finding noses these days and grabbing his. It was beautiful. We chatted. I told him how much I honor her for choosing a harder path. How privileged I feel that she chose us, and me in particular. How having a special needs kid is like a vote of confidence from GOD. His ears heard what I was saying, but his heart heard Annabelle's love. And I think it'll be easier for him to hear the love of his own beautiful sweet baby and whatever message he has to bring.

Annabelle

There are so many posts I haven't published here, and I really ought to, to keep the record for my kids up to date.

With Sarah Palin's resignation from the Alaska Governorship, I googled her, and Trig. Trig has his own little web site. What weird crap comes up.

All I know is that with Annabelle, the 3rd AJ, having Down Syndrome, I couldn't be more blessed. AJs 1 and 2, Angelina and Alexis, adore her. I wish the world had more contact with people like her. Special needs equals special perspectives, special love, special insights -- all of which I'd have missed out on without her.

At this point I could give a rat's ass about politics. I understand that if I, as a Mom, were to give up precious time with my family, it would have to be for a damn good reason. And being Governor, apparently wasn't a good enough reason for Sarah anymore. You GO GIRL!!!! And give that kid a hug and a cuddle for me.

Maybe someday Annabelle and Trig could be friends. Even folks who can't see auras would swear there's an almost-blinding glow about them. It's not seen as much as felt. I, for one, can feel it when the angels wings brush me as they envy my ability to hold and cuddle her. Sarah, we share that joy.

Evelyn